i have this thing
where i need everything to be perfect before i can begin something new.
even yesterday, in preparation for ushering in 2013
i ran around like a crazy person
cleaning my house
organizing things
wishing i had more motivation to declutter my desk
or catalogue my music library
and arrange all my photos into albums
sometimes i even refuse to begin something if everything isn't
just. so.
but i'm trying to learn how to let this impulse go.
not everything has to be perfect before you begin something.
that's just life.
and you have to decide to live it, as it comes.
i get inspiration from unlikely places
and while watching The Five-Year Engagement
when Violet is proposing to Tom for the second time, she says:
"i don't think we can figure out all of our problems before we get married,
but i promise you, i will just love you every step of the way"
and i was all YES. YES, Violet. preach.
it doesn't have to be perfect before you begin
you just have to actually begin.
so last night,
when Nick and i got into a heated discussion about our future,
at 11:58pm
and we actually had to stop arguing to notice that it was midnight
wish each other Happy New Year
and smooch
i didn't let it bug me (too much)
because that's life!
sometimes you're arguing about where you're going to live
or who will care for your imaginary children
during big, life-changing events,
like the advent of a New Year!
you just gotta push through it.
because the sun came up today
and 2013 kicked off
and we are still together and more in love than ever.
bit of a sputter start there, 2013
but i have high hopes for you...
Love this. There is something so beautiful about a fresh beginning with the new year.
ReplyDeleteSo true. I'm with you-it's so hard to start things when you have some loose ends. Happiest New Year to you two!
ReplyDeletegah, i get the same way about wanting things perfect before moving on or starting a project! happy new year!
ReplyDeleteI used to be so crippled by always needing the perfect start/ clean slate so I know what you mean.
ReplyDeleteThankfully I'm better now.
Hope your 2013 is awesome!!
Cheers to 2013!! I can SO relate to you in wanting things to start perfectly - but you are right, life is messy!
ReplyDeleteHere here! Happy New Year :)
ReplyDeleteAhh I understand the desire for everything to be neat, orderly, perfect, and tied with a tidy little bow. :) But then as I continue my degree in medicine, I realize I have to let a lot of that go. Enjoy your blog! Happy new year!
ReplyDeletei will care for your imaginary children. #movetooakland
ReplyDeleteI always feel the need to 'start fresh' as well in the new year. I always hope that the new year will be 'the' year for tons of new things to happen. Of course, that may or may not come true, but it's good to be hopeful about it. I hope 2013 is a great year for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteAnd I kind of just love how you and husband were arguing just before midnight. It just shows just not everything has to be perfect, and it's just real life.
But I'm glad you made up :)
thank you for always being so real. i LOVE this post.
ReplyDeletexo