posted on: Tuesday, January 1, 2013
i have this thing
where i need everything to be perfect before i can begin something new.
even yesterday, in preparation for ushering in 2013
i ran around like a crazy person
cleaning my house
wishing i had more motivation to declutter my desk
or catalogue my music library
and arrange all my photos into albums
sometimes i even refuse to begin something if everything isn't
but i'm trying to learn how to let this impulse go.
not everything has to be perfect before you begin something.
that's just life.
and you have to decide to live it, as it comes.
i get inspiration from unlikely places
and while watching The Five-Year Engagement
when Violet is proposing to Tom for the second time, she says:
"i don't think we can figure out all of our problems before we get married,
but i promise you, i will just love you every step of the way"
and i was all YES. YES, Violet. preach.
it doesn't have to be perfect before you begin
you just have to actually begin.
so last night,
when Nick and i got into a heated discussion about our future,
and we actually had to stop arguing to notice that it was midnight
wish each other Happy New Year
i didn't let it bug me (too much)
because that's life!
sometimes you're arguing about where you're going to live
or who will care for your imaginary children
during big, life-changing events,
like the advent of a New Year!
you just gotta push through it.
because the sun came up today
and 2013 kicked off
and we are still together and more in love than ever.
bit of a sputter start there, 2013
but i have high hopes for you...